That's sort of a silly question. You are yourself.
Although the more you begin to think about it, the harder it is to grasp.
You are a college student. Undergrad. Your friends will be graduating this year.
Not you, though. You took a year off. Stress, an illness, a multitude of other issues.
The dean's office assured you it wouldn't mean you'd lose your scholarship.
Now here you are, going home.